THE MAGICIAN

A Magician studies the ways things work, but from a different perspective than is perhaps classed as the norm. This means today if you make one small change, the effect could then lead to change on a grander scale. The Magician encourages you to use the tools available to you, and to the best of your ability. So today is the day for change and using the power you have to make that change happen and continue.

This is a really interesting card for me today, as I have decided to give up alcohol, and believe me this is not an easy decision for me to make. I've been drinking for eternity, and in fact I have now reached the stage when I can't actually remember when I didn't drink! However, slowly, but surely, I cannot deny that the drink has become too relevant in my life for me to truly justify it's purpose any more, and as I can't afford rehab, I guess I'm on my own. It's strange as I don't really class myself as an alcoholic... I don't go around getting smashed out my face every night, but I do drink every night, and I mean one bottle of wine, sometimes more... every night! So right at this moment I'm feeling quite sad because I love my drink and I know I'm going miss it, and also I'm feeling very scared because I have no idea who I am without drink, and I most definitely feel like I'm about to jump blind-folded into a black hole! But alas, I am for the first time at least going to try... wish me luck!!!!!!

P.S. Message for my daughter, sorry I don't think I'm strong enough to give up the fags too... one step at a time yeah!